What I'm Learning From Surrender

I hear the word "surrender" a lot and how important it is to do when it comes to living a life of peace, happiness and love. Now, I’m starting to feel it. Just getting out of my own way and letting things happen for me instead of forcing them to happen just because that’s what is expected. We force things all the time. This I believe is what we call “working hard.” You have to work hard to get ahead in life. You have to work hard to get along. You have to work hard to be successful. But what if success is about relaxing into what is and what can be?

Nature has been my greatest teacher when it comes to doing and being. She moves slowly and intently. Not a single ounce of energy is wasted, not even in the smallest things. I find that we, as a species, waste so much life energy on what we think we need just because we’re told we need it. But is what we think we need really worth our life energy to acquire? For survival, yes. Every living thing needs to do whatever it can to survive on this particular plane and by the way this is what ego is really for - survival - no more, no less. But what about the rest? The material world that we are sold every minute of every day. In the last year and a half of living with less, I’ve been learning I am happier. I’m getting back knowing who and what I really am. It’s like layers of an onion being peeled back to reveal the soft, vulnerable and tender Love that's inside. Not the kind of love that advertisers try to sell us on but True Love. The kind that defies words but you know what it feels like when you do feel it.

For me, life hasn't really been about acquiring as much as I can. It’s been about experiences. Rich, deep and fulfilling experiences. They don’t have to be exotic either. For example, I get a lot out of just sitting for an afternoon in the sunshine with a cup of great tea and just observing life as it happens. I get a huge amount of fulfillment out walking in the forest, being with the trees. These tall Brothers and Sisters surround me like Family and it feels like they watch over me to make sure I stay safe. And it goes without saying, that I am most fulfilled when I’m creating music. It is literally my gift that comes out when I get out of my own way and let it come through. When I do things like this, I feel like I can breathe and relax with no judgments – not even from my own head. My soul smiles and I feel the most joy and happiness. Sometimes, I feel expansive, like my physical body can’t contain the energy that I feel. Feelings like this I can only describe as crazy beautiful because they are.

So, with all of that said, let me throw this out there:

I wish everyone would take the chance to feel this kind of joy in their lives.

I wish everyone would take a moment to find what makes them happy and then do that thing.

I wish everyone would take the courage to say no to what is not good for them and say yes to what they really want. 

And I wish everyone as much happiness and joy they can stand.

So......how much joy and happiness can you stand? How much are you willing to get out of your own way - to surrender - and just relax into what is? I know it's easier said than done but you can start practicing any time. What's worked for me is taking small steps at first to see what happens. I try not to worry about failing or not being good at it. Sometimes, I fall down in this category but overall, I'm learning and I'm getting better at it. I just try to be kind, patient and loving to myself as I keep practicing and learning. You can try this too. If you decide to, just know that I'm walking right there beside you because.......we really are in this together. 

Take care, be well and ......I Love You,


Pamela Mortensen

Performer, musician, composer and mad scientist of sound and soundscapes. Mostly plays didgeridoo but also plays keyboard, sings and loves synthesizing sound both digitally and organically.